There were times...

[apology if you can't have something positive from this posting]

There were times... (many times, I think) when I reallyyy... realllyyy... want so bad that my normal life back.

What is my normal life? Freedom. I used to have my own time. I used to go wherever I want. I used to be a person that do whatever I want and won't do whatever I don't want. Now, it's all robbed by this M* C** university. No freedom anymore... And after couples months, it's not going to be easier, but it's going to be tougher and tougher. So stressful by what happened recently... works, study, relationship with other... All these things are coming and ruin my life.

I was asking to myself if all successful people must have done all these stressful things. I really want to ask them how did they finally survive. It is hard... Very hard, indeed.

This proves one thing. I'm an ordinary human being... with all the weaknesses and feel like want to give up many times.

Ah, ok then... I glad I still a living human being... and ya, I think I still can have thousand reasons to smile. I think I'm quite sure that there are people who love me unconditionally. I think I know that at least thousand youth read my books and blessed by it. Ya, I think I know that my life is so meaningful, regardless I have many problems and I know exactly that all my problems are finally solved beautifully at the end. Thanks God for the grace.

Well, my greatest honor will always be to serve my Lord and King.